time

Time

Time goes fast
Time goes slow

Time sees people die

Time sees the grass grow

Time does not forget
Time does not forgive

Time crushes and kills

Time takes all you have to give

Time rushes past

Time ticks and tocks

Time is shown by the sun

Time is on the kitchen clock
Time is going slowly
Time tells you what must be done

Time is running out
Time waits for you to have fun
Time is impatient
Time is kind
Time is cruel
Time doesn't mind
Time is a second
Time is forever
Time is right this minute
Time is now or never

by Amy Darnbrook

This weekend i was gone with my worship band, to practice for our first CD, for that i looked for some texts to make them think a little, but actually it just made me think.
Especially because there is this one person in my life, i know that is alwayson the go, never there even though he is the one who should be listening, helping and caring, but how is that possible if he's not there, if he's always gone.
In this time, this generation we always have to be on the go, everything has to go fast, fast, fast and it doesn't matter if you loose someone on the way.
So just think how important time is in our lives, just think about how often you use time realted words, sentences or questions....
here an example for a normal conversation i have sometimes:
me:hey, how are you doing
friend: ok, a little stress but fine
me: wanna meet?
friend: sorry, but i don't really have time

if these would be 4 texts, 3 out of them are time related.
Still the worst thing you could do is to get yourself stressed because you don't have time. I mean i would be the first one if it would be possible to buy time, but i can't, you can't nobody can.

So yeah, time is something really, really precious and we have to be careful with it, use it wisely but don't try to fit everything in cause than you can't enjoy it; to say it with my favorite words:
CHILL

Loooooooooooooooooooove Chrissi

My life the (Anti-)trinity

Trinity: Three people as one. God is the father, son and holy spirit!

When i thought about going back to school i started thinking about how it's like to go back to school, how i have to go back to person i have to bei when i'm in school; and i started thinking.

What kind of person am, and the thing is i couldn't define it as one person, it is like i have three kind of characters, depending on where i am.

When I'm school, i'm this introverted, not liked but still somewhat smart girl, that sometimes is a nerd. I don't laugh a lot, don't like attention and try to keep everything with myself.

When I'm with my best friends, I'm the complete opposite; extroverted, funny, have fun, party, not the typical daddy's girl. I can show my emotions and am happy with that. I love my friends!!!

When I'm with my church, the crux or my friends from that group I'm a very relaxed person, sometimes at least, but I still can have discussions with those people i can't with my friends. I act older, i still party but I'm very relaxed as well cause i can show my love and relationship to God.

Sometimes I wish that I could combine my life, make three to one. But I don't know how it could work, it's a trinity that isn't right, a trinity that doesn't work, a trinity that's never gonna become one.
Yeah, so my life is an antitrinity, but i really like it, because i think that noone could handle one of my lifes they don't know, so i really think it's good how it is.

Now i'm ready to go, to school, to my friends, my church and my life :D

holiday stress

every third saturday of the month there is something called nightfever in the cologne cathedral; this saturday was my first time. After going to the FC Köln game my friend told me i should check it out, since it has similarities to taize; so i did. It's a time to think and talk to God, but than there is a catechesis from the city priest, i kinda know so i did that as well, and he talked about holiday stress, that's how i got the title for this post.
I can really relate to what he said there about that people make themselves a lot of stress even though it should be time to relax.
While i was in america, and after i was on my east coast trip i just chilled, relaxed in the pool or hung out with my friends, but here? back in germany? Since I'm here i'm always on the run, if it's spain, britain or a band camp. I seriously spent 5 days or less at home in the one month I'm back, is that normal? I mean i need the stress, i need being on the run and i couldn't stand being home more than an hour with nothing to do, but that is not only my problem, it is a problem so many people have; they can't relax.
God is always there but why can't we listen? why can't we listen to what he is saying to us. Because we're running all the time, listening to music having ear phones with noise isolation already says everything. when we wear those ear phones we wanna block out everything qnd concentrate on ourselves I just wish for all of us that we can start listen, that we can get into a deeper relationship with us.

Well, i think i'm getting sick :( bust still, I'm gonna go on. hihi ok so this saturday was the first game of my soccer club 1.FC Köln. it was a packed stadium and i thought i could go with alllllll the other fans, standing there having a good time but than i had to go somewhere else because of this stupid crutch, it sucked, or at least that's what i thought :D i got a seat right at the mid field line in the first row; we called it the cripple row because that's where they send the ones with crutches :D haha, it was really cool!!!

so i really don't know what to write anymore!
So have a good day, night whatsoever and remember: GOD LOVES YA!

Your Chrissay

Another day in a normal life

I don't know what's going on right now, last night or better this morning, i was awake until about 5.30 - 6 am!!! i mean i wanna sleep, but i can't. There is no reason for me to be nervous or anything, i just can't seem to fall asleep.

Than after finally sleeping for a couple of hours i got a call from my dad; that's when i recognized that i was suppose to take a bus about 20 minutes ago :s DAMN it ! late once again! well, at the end it wasn't even too bad cause i was only 20 minutes late, but still, i don't like being late it just makes me feel bad.

The friend i met with is one of my church frinds, a really nice and loving girl, a friend you can REALLY ;) talk to. we made this really weird noodles that were calle 'priest strangler' i don't know why, but we thought it would be funny. =D So we talked a lot, like girls do it, so really nothing special!
Than we started watching worship videos on youtube, it gave her goosbumps and that makes me feel so good, to see how God is working to one of my favorite ways ever: music! It reminded me of Psalm 98, where it's about how music is there to worship our God! 

But still, after meeting with my first friend I went to see one of my best friends because she is going on vacation tomorrow, so it was clear that i had to see her. i don't know what happened there, but she was in a really weird mood, that made me feel kinda happy because she was it.

While we are talking about friends; friendship is one of the most important things, Albert Schweizer once said: "In everyone's life, at some time, our inner fire goes out. It is then burst into flame by an encounter with another human being. We should all be thankful for those people who rekindle the inner spirit."
That really hits it, I mean what would the world be without friends? For me it would be like a rainbow without colors, a bird without wings, music without sound, church without God! I couldn't live without it, my friends are always there for me and i hope I am as good of a friend than they are to me?! I often ask myself the question how do i deserve this love? why do i get these amazing people in my life? And there is only one answer to these questions, well actually two.
1. i don't know, I really don't know, I mean I'm a pretty messed up person and I'm pretty sure it's not really easy with me.
2. Because we have a mighty, loving and forgiving God, he knows exactly what I need, and who I need.

As you can see I really am just a normal teenager, with normal feelings and normal thoughts, but still I think I'm a special and uniqe person, because I'm made in the look of God and please, that makes everybody the most special and precious thing.

haha, I just can't stay with on one topic, it's probably really hard to read or at least understand it. So yeah, I'm sorry for that but I hope you still enjoy it

=D

My first post

I don't know why I just decided to start blogging now, maybe it's because i just want to write down stuff i have in my head, maybe to tell what's going on.
It's not gonna be one of those fancy blogs you can find sometimes, it's just gonna be a simple blog about a simple life; my life!

My life really is simple, I'm a regular student, who likes makinng and listening to music, meeting friends and isn't to happy about everything that has to do with school ;). so really nothing special, just a life that is as normal as the life of every other average student.

Today I met with two friends, first one of my friends came over and we just hung around and chilled. than i met with my best friend to drink a coffee and we took a stroll and talked, it was so good talking to her. i kinda miss talks about christ though. In america i had a lot of people i could talk about it but it's so hard to find a person like that here.
Right now I'm listening to K- Love, a radio station with contemporary christian music, just listen to what they are singing is so encouraging, but what helps even more is seeing how my friends are becoming, how they grow in God, how they grow as persons, it's just amazing what God has in storage for us.
Okay so it's 0.21 right now and I'm still way to awake to go to bed, i just have this power right now, the want to talk about jesus. well i think it has to wait cause there is noone online anymore :D
Good night world,
good night first blogging experience :D